Deserts
We Are All Rainmakers
What can we gain by sailing to the moon if we are not able to cross the abyss that separates us from ourselves? – Thomas Merton Chen Jiru (1558-1639), Thatched Hut by Tall Pines. Richard Wilhelm, Chinese scholar and theologian, told the story of the Rainmaker to Carl Jung while at a gathering of the…
Read MoreFalling Back to Earth
Anyone who has participated in a School of Lost Borders program has heard some rendition of Steven Foster’s phrase about the Big Lie. “The Big Lie”, Steven would boldly say, “is that we are not nature!” These words have echoed throughout my life for the last fifteen years, reminding me that not only do…
Read MoreMigrating toward Wholeness
Lately, I’ve been contemplating wholeness. I know that wholeness is something to be desired, but what is wholeness, really? Wholeness is one of those abstract words we carelessly toss around – similar to ego or self – but when asked, it is difficult to come up with a clear definition. When I Googled the question…
Read MoreWalking on the Moon
The moon woke me. I was sleeping soundly in a remote wash tucked up a canyon in Death Valley, but when the moon rose to its zenith, full and fiery; I could no longer remain in my sleeping bag. I was compelled to rise and walk. Actually, I had planned to take a night walk…
Read MoreDevil’s De-light
As I was cleaning out my office this week I came across a file containing a collection of letters, notes, and photos from my early years with the School of Lost Borders. While sorting through the pile, I realized that I participated in my first “vision fast” over twelve years ago and have been doing…
Read MoreThe Unbearable Lightness of Snow
“It was like dying, this watching the world recede into deeper and deeper blues while the snow piled; silence swelled and extended, distance dissolved, and soon only concentration at the largest shadows let me make out the movement of falling snow, and that too failed.” – Annie Dillard. The most unusual thing happened last week…
Read More“The Desert Loves to Strip Bare”
Each year I go into the desert usually someplace in Death Valley or the Inyo Mountain Range, to spend four days and nights alone, without food or shelter, and to engage in what many call a “vision fast”. This has been my practice for the last ten years, and although it has become quite ordinary…
Read MoreSearching for Bighorn
Last fall, my father was diagnosed with cancer. I had just entered the first week of my sabbatical when the news came in. Something unusual had been found on his pancreas. A month later, the cancer was confirmed. My world caved in. During sabbatical my goal was to make good progress on my book, but I…
Read MoreLost and Found
I finally enrolled in a map and compass class with the Desert Institute in Joshua Tree National Park. The instructor, Karl VonHalle, an animated, unruly haired man in his, say, fifties, captivated my attention with stories of hikers getting lost and found (some dead) in desert mazes such as the Wonderland of Rocks in JTNP.…
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